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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 00:28:35 GMT

TALK TO ME PEOPLE!
GIVE ME UPS, DOWNS
or ill freakin pistolwhip you

So 11 months later...

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 00:37:42 GMT

Good morning yall. Havent updated for 11 months now, and reading an old acquainteces new entries, decided to repost a little tidbit on whats happened in my life.
So me and Joy broke up 8 months ago. For good.
Shes with someone else now and happy. I hope
I kinda screwed around trying to find someone to replace her,
but it didnt really work. I dated a lot of whores
and did a lot of whorish deeds.
I hit rock bottom.
On top of it, I started smoking weed again
big time.
Every day. All day
Last year me and a friend got caught leaving school to smoke pot.
Big investigation
3 arrests.
countless tickets.
Over the summer, did some coke again
Only a couple times.
But still.
When I was with her, i was clean.
I smoked cigarettes
but never drank
never thought about weed
was completely against any alcohol.
I changed so much.
But still as low as a sank,
im glad i did it.
Cuz i've learned so much
about myself
about others
about life
about whats ok
and whats horribly wrong.
almost got my ass kicked learning.
but i dont fuck around like that anymore.
Quit smoking weed for school.
I cant fail anymore.
I need a good life.
I want to turn it all around.
But i dont have the right friends to help me with it anymore.
Theres constant pressure all around me
cuz i was that far in with the drug scene.
None of my friends dont smoke.
It doesnt make it easier.
But I'm clean.
And the craving dies down every day.
Its all good.
So just when I thought i forgot about her
she comes back.
and we start to talk.
and shit gets worked out.
but she gets me thinking about the past again.
about everything i did wrong.
about everything i regreted.
I feel horrible all over again.
So all i can do is accept its over and theres nothing i can do about it now.
Just gotta stop fucking up with my future girlfriends.
But thats it.
I might ramble tomorrow.
Might not.
But leave me some comments.
Questions about my life.
Concerns ( people have a lot nowadays)
I'm an open book.

Friday, October 28, 2005

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 23:40:15 GMT

I know that ill regret this when you're gone....

Sunday, October 16, 2005

Sun, 16 Oct 2005 23:26:20 GMT

Blah....comment

Saturday, October 08, 2005

Sat, 08 Oct 2005 22:47:41 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Yes, I have one.
Birthday:	A long, long time ago, in a galaxy far away.
Birthplace:	A hospital
Current Location:	My house
Eye Color:	No, my eyes are white
Hair Color:	Yes
Height:	Dave-sized
Right Handed or Left Handed:	I have both of my hands
The Shoes You Wore Today:	are named sally
Your Weakness:	Kryptonite
Your Fears:	Salad
Your Perfect Pizza:	would be circular
Your Most Overused Phrase On an IM:	blue
Thoughts First Waking Up:	Who goes to sleep?
Your Best Physical Feature:	My eyelashes
Your Bedtime:	around 4:30 am
Your Most Missed Memory:	I dont miss any of my memories
Pepsi or Coke:	jeez, how did you know I was thirsty?
MacDonalds or Burger King:	No, I'm King Leo
Single or Group Dates:	Group...how can you date if you single anyways?
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	yeah...I dont have a smart ass comment for this one.
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla Ice
Cappuccino or Coffee:	NEITHER!
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	Hell no
Do you Sing:	in front of the mirror
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes i do, and dont call me Daily.
Have you Been in Love:	Yeah
Do you want to go to College:	not particularily
Do you want to get Married:	I guess
Do you belive in yourself:	No way man, I dont exist.
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	no, im just a freak
Do you get along with your Parents:	Only my dad.
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yeah, but they never happen at the right time
Do you play an Instrument:	guitar
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	No
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yeah
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yeah
Have you ever eaten a box of Oreos:	No, I ate the oreos that were in the box.
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no
Ever been called a Tease:	only by the voices in my head
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	yeah
How do you want to Die:	I dont
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	I dont wanna gro up
What country would you most like to Visit:	I dont know, they all suck.
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	I dont care
Favourite Hair Color:	Black or dark brown
Short or Long Hair:	long
Height:	Idk, shorter than me would be nice.
Weight:	Less than a size T
Best Clothing Style:	Just not preppy.
Number of Drugs I have taken:	Zero
Number of CDs I own:	I dont wanna count all of them
Number of Piercings:	None
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	A couple
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Friday, October 07, 2005

Fri, 07 Oct 2005 01:46:15 GMT

Take the quiz: "Whats your "true theme song" ~PICTURES~"

Silhouettes By;Smile empty soul
You don't like your parents very much...you get in arguements with them all the time. You hope you don't turn out like them. You wish you had more freedom and more trusting parents...even though they should'nt trust you...because your really going out to do bad things they would'nt approve of.
Take the quiz: "What sex dessert are you? *PICS*"

chocolate sauce
you like it on top...u like is sweet, but rough...you kinky SON OF A BITCH BASTARD!
Take the quiz: "//WHat seXuaL pOsItIon ARe You((((PICTURES))))"

MISsOnAry
(((OH HELL YEAH...LiKe adAM aNd eVE...NEvEr gEts OLd aNd iTs veRy SatIsfYiNg)))
Take the quiz: "Quizes for all virgins!"

You sure you're still a virgin?!
Man are you sure you are a virgin??!!! *Edit*Surprisingly, I get this question all the time -Dave*
Take the quiz: ".:::Which Deadly Sin are you?:::."

sloth
Get of that bum off yours and get to work!
Take the quiz: "What Religion Are You, Really?"

Atheist
You are...Atheist. Congratulations. You officially have the biggest dick. (Although, Ron Jeremy was Jewish...hmmm) You have the guts to believe that you will rot and in your grave and you like it that way. You will fight to keep crazy christians from posting their bullshit philosophy left and right and center. You walk a lonely road, but have fun with it. Remember...no sin, no consequences. Live it up.
Take the quiz: "Do you really know Marilyn Manson??"

awesome you really know him go you
you are awesome because you know alot about him we should talk somtime!!!!
Take the quiz: "What drug reflects your personality?"

X
ECSTASY...appropriately named! You like to party, and you don't like to stop! You are very energetic and social. X is a fun drug, just don't OD!
Take the quiz: "what weed r u most like PICS!"

straight up haze
u like weed that will get u fucked up and ready to fucken sleep thos is how i felt when i had this shit stay up

Thursday, October 06, 2005

Thu, 06 Oct 2005 02:23:12 GMT

Take the quiz: "what kind of drug are you? (includes pictures)"

xtc.
you are xtc.amazing, wild, sexy and young.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Wed, 05 Oct 2005 00:37:59 GMT

Take the quiz: "Which character from a horror film are you?"

Satan (from The Omen)
My favourite one! You are well diguised and secretly go about killing all who will stand in your way of getting world domination. Go you!!

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 23:50:38 GMT

Take the quiz: "how f...ked up are you"

wait there,were coming to get you now
weve called the guys in white coats to come and get you so dont commit a mass murder before they come or youll find youll be in there longer

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Tue, 04 Oct 2005 00:15:25 GMT

Take the quiz: "What kind of cigarette are you? (pics)"

BLACK DEATH
You're Black Death! Strong cigarettes, very very very strong... Expensive and tough...